The Answerhttp://theanswerbybelle.blog.co.uk/en-EUhourly82000-01-01T12:00+00:00The Answerhttp://theanswerbybelle.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/12/9c9e968c302fad4fa42f7f1194a026_160x200.jpgFirst posthttp://theanswerbybelle.blog.co.uk/2007/12/02/first_post~3385790/2007-12-02T23:34:35+01:00 <p>So this is the first blog I've written. </p> <p>I'm having a personal crisis. and I cant admit it to anyone I know because I put on this big confident front and its easier (like a confessional box) to just tell strangers. </p> <p>I'm training to be a teacher; but I'm not actually sure anymore that its what I want to do. I've been through proper highs and lows; and I've really started to dread it. Its literally emotional abuse all day, every day for little pay and little joy. </p> <p>But. Do I complete the PGCE and then look for other stuff to do or do I just jack it all in now and start again? But after doing the PGCE you then have to do an NQT year to qualify. Am I willing to grit my teeth and suffer through the next 2 years for the sake of it? Will it get better? Do I transfer after my PGCE to a Primary course? That would negate the most irritating thing about the job: teenagers. </p> <p>At 21; am I making mistakes now that will ruin the rest of my life? But I cant afford to stop training and find a job; can I? What on earth should I do? I'm so so stuck; and I cant believe the amount of abuse I'm getting from some teenagers for just trying to teach them some history; maybe I'd enjoy teaching primary as there's none of the stroppiness that puts me off so much.</p> <p>Then theres my love life; or lack of. Endless dates with guys I dont like and the one guy I like is lukewarm towards me. </p> <p>Moan moan moan. </p> <p>I need answers. NOW. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://theanswerbybelle.blog.co.uk/2007/12/02/first_post~3385790/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>So this is the first blog I've written.

I'm having a personal crisis. and I cant admit it to anyone I know because I put on this big confident front and its easier (like a confessional box) to just tell strangers.

I'm training to be a teacher; but I'm not actually sure anymore that its what I want to do. I've been through proper highs and lows; and I've really started to dread it. Its literally emotional abuse all day, every day for little pay and little joy.

But. Do I complete the PGCE and then look for other stuff to do or do I just jack it all in now and start again? But after doing the PGCE you then have to do an NQT year to qualify. Am I willing to grit my teeth and suffer through the next 2 years for the sake of it? Will it get better? Do I transfer after my PGCE to a Primary course? That would negate the most irritating thing about the job: teenagers.

At 21; am I making mistakes now that will ruin the rest of my life? But I cant afford to stop training and find a job; can I? What on earth should I do? I'm so so stuck; and I cant believe the amount of abuse I'm getting from some teenagers for just trying to teach them some history; maybe I'd enjoy teaching primary as there's none of the stroppiness that puts me off so much.

Then theres my love life; or lack of. Endless dates with guys I dont like and the one guy I like is lukewarm towards me.

Moan moan moan.

I need answers. NOW.

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